pittsburgh

i left chicago the way i arrived last november: by train. it felt unfinished. it felt like i'll be back.

my time in pittsburgh has been warm and quick. i leave tomorrow morning. it sped. pittsburgh is comfortable and frustrating and this is the first time it's actually felt small to me.

i booked my flight to berlin: i should be flying out of nyc on the afternoon of august 24, arriving in berlin the morning of the 25th. this gives me, in all likelihood, about as much time back in pittsburgh as i had between germany and new zealand in the summer of '08. so i should be able to handle it. right? riiiiight?

i'm going to have a great summer in maine. i know it. but being in pittsburgh makes me long for a slow, simple, sweaty pittsburgh summer. i haven't had one since 2006 and i may never have one again. who knows?

i am nostalgic, unsettled, nervous, excited underneath it all, sad. leaving and leaving and leaving.